Yesterday I treated myself to a much needed facial. Instead of looking at it as taking care of myself I actually went into it feeling kind of guilty. I have friends that are at different crossroads in their life. Major crossroads. Friends that are unemployed and searching frantically for a job in a market that sucks right now. Friends that are on the verge of divorce. Friends that have one or even both parents that are extremely ill. Friends that are dealing with the trials and tribulations of raising teenagers while trying to make some kind of personal life for themselves. And here I am getting a facial. It just sounds so trivial. I remember the first time I realized that my life was returning to some sense of normalcy after my first husband passed away. I was talking with a friend about something that was so completely small on the grand scheme of things ( I don't remember what it was at this point but I guess that's the point I'm trying to make) and it dawned on me that my life was going on. My tragedy was starting to become yesterday's news and it was onto the next person's misfortune. I realized that I was coming out of that dark place I was in and I was ready to do so. It's made me more able to help people come out of their dark place. So I guess I have to look at being able to go to get a facial and not have to worry about anything other than getting there on time (which for me is a HUGE deal!!) as a true gift that has been given to me for right now. Tomorrow is not promised. And, by the way, I did end up meeting a wonderful woman that wants to put my cards in her shop in downtown Nyack. I have been saying my positive affirmations in the morning ~" I AM open to the adundance of the Universe." "Money flows to me frequently and easily." In spite of those feelings of guilt, I was exactly where I was supposed to be at that moment ~ as we all are.
Many blessings ~ Wendy