As I drove around yesterday, finishing up my Christmas errands in the rain, an overwhelming feeling of gratitude came over me. I thanked the Universe for all of my many blessings. I thanked the Universe for putting people in my path yesterday that reminded me of just how blessed I am. I thought of the mom at the grocery store whom I overheard tell her sons she didn't know if she had enough money to buy the frozen vegetables they wanted. They had a couple of items in their cart while mine was overflowing. I decided to replace the anxiety I felt over all of the gifts I've yet to wrap with the thought of how blessed we are that my husband has a good job that enables us to buy all of these gifts.
I thought of the families of the NYPD officers that tragically and senselessly lost their lives last week. I thought of the empty chairs at their Christmas tables. I thought of the empty chairs that we've had to face over the years and was filled with gratitude for how far we've come since then. The tears still flow but more often then not there is a smile along with those tears as we remember our loved ones. I also am filled with gratitude that my belief in the afterlife lets me know that they are still always with us. : )
As I pulled into my driveway I thought about my daughter who, had it not been for one of those profound losses, would not be here today. I thought about the day she was born and how I thanked my first husband who had passed away six years before for bringing my second husband into my life. There is not a doubt in my mind that he sent Jim to the boys and I. He would not have settled for anyone less to raise his three sons after he passed.
I also thanked the Universe for my wonderful husband and our four beautiful, happy and healthy children. We've had our crazy moments this year for sure and I'd be lying if I said I don't have worries sometimes about what the future brings. The kids are growing up in a very different world from the one I grew up in. Just as our parents can say the same. It can be overwhelming at times to have kids in all different age groups. Technically, two of them aren't even kids anymore. : )
So I will continue to say my prayers throughout the day and trust that everything is unfolding the way that it's supposed to. I will continue to thank my childrens' Guardian Angels for working overtime when necessary. I will continue to be grateful for the health of my family. I will pray for the serenity to accept the things I cannot change. The courage to change the things I can. The wisdom to know the difference.
I wish you all a very happy Christmas and I thank you for your wonderful comments and your friendship. May we all have nothing but beautiful things to look forward to in the coming year!!! : )
Many blessings to you all ~ Wendy xoxo